Ling

-D art of uncertainty-

2012-02-07T16:08:00.001+01:00

This is a very amazing book that I read recently, highly recommended if you like to improve on thinking on life :D

I am afraid of uncertainty, maybe most of us too...

- The story of Umbrella-

2012-02-06T15:02:00.005+01:00

Today, after busying for whole day, found this beautiful drawing on a FB page when i was on my way back home (It's from "the real art of street art" ) (:

I think it tells a simple story :*l

-the old pin board -

2012-01-31T16:41:00.001+01:00

This was a photo i found in a photo album when i went back home , it was my decoration on my secondary classroom pinboard :)) and I like it very much....

The theme is autumn ... And it is showing class time table , name for those in charge in cleaning classroom , ( the big leaf) and ajk in the class :))

-About heart shape-

2012-01-30T15:53:00.004+01:00

no matter how big a heart is....

it only has one space...

-bout money from dad n mum-

2012-01-28T18:24:00.001+01:00

"money can slowly earn...Don worry so much...have to be happy... Route no need to be always straight. " mum

"things that if you think which are not important no need to buy, you are young , have to save some money... " dad

-happy-

2012-01-23T17:18:00.001+01:00

One of the greatest thing in the world is that I could be myself : D and I feel happy XD yeah!

- about home :) -

2012-01-21T16:51:00.001+01:00

I saw them waving and smiling when I reached home . His hair is shorter and grew less and she is wearing the young colourful dress, they were both smiling

When I asked why were they smiling? And they were guessing did I become prettier ?T.T Off cause not x.x only grow more pimples

And
I have learnt through time that
One of the greatest thing in this world is to to have someone/s to welcome you home and is/are happy to see you :))

Thanks mum n dad :D

- little things bout flowers-

2012-01-16T16:10:00.004+01:00

Today I have a topic about flowers and plant with mr BH after mentioning about green wall n plant .. haha..

Think that I really like green forest, green plant and nature :D if my future field is related to greeny , will be quite happy too

thanks to BH about plant+florist topic, I realize that I kept some pictures of flowers which i took in flora n plant shop that in i still kept in my phone :)) so have to post up...

I personally like white flowers that has many folded petals such as carnation or roses etc and off course a road that filled with Sakura tress....

I like white flower because whenever I look at it i will feel calm except jessamine that has a weird smell@@ --> jasmine smell , but this kind of flower normally is hard to plant n maintain... Possibly suitable in colder climate??

Surprisingly , white flowers has an unusual nice floral smell but many claims that it is used for dead people D: or wedding usage , wonder is history true about flower meaning..?

And i don't really like orcid because it has a tounge ( i look at it, it has a tounge) or dark red roses which looks like it has been poisoned.. Haha

Below are some white flowers pictures that i like :) and others are The pictures that I took in Thomson road flora and plant shops during the end of last year.

The pink flowers are my flowers which are glowing now : D everyday seeing my flowers are growing being me joy :))

Sadly, I don't know the name for most of the flowers....

This is a flower that I saw online but wonder what is its name, it is so pretty :)

( i guess must be one type of roses)

This is a flower that I saw in the flora shop.. it looks like snow... Nice!!

Tounge flower

This orchid has a nice colour but has tounges...errrr..

I took this because it remind me of Crocodile skin

This plant i have never seen before, is it a new hybird with cactus or new species??? It is for chinese new year.. but It looks so weird, dont you agree T_T?

Ha! Fly Plant (it will eat Fly )

Orchid, skip ba XD

I think THis flower is special when it is closed... they looks like dumpling...

-the blue nose friend part 3-

2012-01-15T10:58:00.001+01:00

When my blue nose friend become a lunch....D:

- feeling better-

2012-01-11T17:40:00.001+01:00

Yesterday , my colleague bought a pencil box as souvenir from her home town for me. I quite like it :))

I feel that I getting to like my colleagues when I try to ask around and joke together :)) I think it depends on how we open out ourselves, how we listen to their story.

so I feel quite happy , and nobody is purely bad until we think badly of them..

And certain matters I have gave up and let them be.

About future is if we think too much we actually forgot to fully focus on wat happen now,, i tried not to think too much , follow my daily life , slowing down my pace and look around , slowing things down but not my work , haha :)

If you ever have old bad memory and brought out again , sometimes will felt very sad about it n just afraid, sometimes feel like shouting out loud but is effortless

And i think tat I completely feeling good now maybe the way I see is different now :D

Try to eat more slowly, actually is good to have friend eating together sometimes, I will feel more refresh :) yet sometimes I just prefer to have my personal time to relax..

N i Cutting down my random act ( my suddenly like to something),I always like to be random @@

And I also realise that many times we wan a complete change yet it is wrong sometimes.. I always like to have a big change on myself, so it is difficult

Maybe A small changes in what we doing now still can make a big difference :D ( for work n etc )

And a new habit too have to start with a single step ( many know but only few did it )

I felt better now :)) in living my new life
Maybe because of new year mood? I could close my eyes and sleep better :))

I learnt that..
To live better maybe is to focus more on "how to built bricks one by one " instead on looking at " how to built a castle "

-My colleagues-

2012-01-06T13:32:00.007+01:00

Time to intro bit my Colleagues, is only through my eyes .. :D

First, R is sitting beside me, she is a fun girl, very cheerful, everyday will sing out loudly..colleague said that she is happy yet can sense that she is not... normally the song she is listening is sad though : (

I always ask her many question on how to do my works, asking too much.... ><

Hmmm... she like to gossip..

During OT, she said " I wanto have a bf, I am turning 30 this year, why I don't have any". My colleague and I looked at her sadly :((

We analyse : she is not weird, she is not ugly... yet fate this matter is hard predict and change. ya, : ( but we believe she can... :D

This is C, she like to tease others..haha she is humorous and very hardworking.. she doesn't like to talk a lot, but joke a lot... I like her style of music selection.. quite cool..

This is me, sometimes when don't have time, i just simply dress like an office lady ( ugly ) in the office @@ Skip.. no topic about me...XD

This is N, she is from Indonesia, she talk softly and very feminine :) but she is always busy and stress.... She love her bf very much since most of her topics will include him :) She is good in 3D modelling and rendering.

This is ice cream from my colleague below, he thought that I like ice cream yet I not really like it..I will grab some bite of it.. I being force to eat ice cream when he bought it... haha.. This ice cream is actually quite nice, it has fig inside O_O.. other flavors has almond nuts... The nuts make the ice cream taste very good.. highly recommended but i will never buy it since it is expensive @@

i intoducing ice cream pula, i think i just like food. X_X

Ya, this is S, He is kind and optimistic... Many times he will say " Yes, go for it..!! good... nice. etc"

Sometimes he is weird will act like a dog and keep barking or make weird noise -_-ll

Since he is from Sg, i always get info from him where to go , what to eat and how to go.. very paiseh to keep asking... but he will always help out, so is very thankful :)

He will try to know other's interests and when he knows....he will always recommend things or links related to our interest :D

This is P, just know he not long ago,he is from another team, i think he is smart, maybe only... He doesn't talk much too, we are all busy people @@, yet he has a fatherly smile :D He just smile to greet you , hmm, i don't know how to describe it, direct translate from mandarin word: " chi xiang"smile, u will know it when u saw my dad or my flat owner..

This is Pei, her nick name, she is from Thailand.. she is my buddy who always guide me to do things.. many people said she is still young, not well experience, still lack of experience to do project and guide others..

But All I can say is

"She is trying her best"

and she is really helpful and nice person, from her deed and what she say , i can sense that she is a very sincere person. from my instinct, XD haha.. I am very grateful of it... :) It's hard to find a nice person like this..

All above is only my judgement and perspective... some maybe is not real depends on other point of view... that's all :D

-The blue friend part2-

2012-01-04T16:27:00.004+01:00

Introducing my buddy, her name is Paddy..

she was sent back home after many months ..

(looking back 19 Dec 2010)

it'd been one year + few days :))

She was my first Christmas present to myself :D

Now she is in the office, :)

- 突然 Suddenly -

2012-01-02T04:58:00.005+01:00

突然好想你

突然鋒利的回憶

突然模糊的眼睛

但我不知道如何是好

我只知道

在我的字典里，

我只会礼节

Suddenly missing you

Suddenly the memory of us

Suddenly my misty eyes

Yet I don’t know how

In my dictionary

I only know courtesy

-2012 Resolution-

2012-01-01T08:58:00.006+01:00

I'm writing down my 2012 Resolution here since it is a cold blog .. haha.

This is a quote that I saw from my one of my senior directors , sound bit ''ROBOT'' but SO SO MEANINGFUL and USEFUL, hope you can adopt it if you like it :)

BE PREPARED, BE PROACTIVE, BE REFLECTIVE

My interpretation:

We have to always be prepared, even though we know our fear, and even though is hard to foresee what will happen, Get REAdy and Take the First Step..

Be proactive means we have to always accept or change ourselves when changes / unexpected thing happen,

Be Reflective means looking back at what we had done and tried to learn from our mistake/success

MY ONE YEAR RESOLUTION (just a simple one)

1) Have faith

2) When is time to rest....just relax

3) More discipline and responsible for myself

4) Plan for future, but live in the present

5) Save money, at least 1K in 1 month!

6) Focus On my work! Focus!

7) Stay + Eat Healthily and slim down 7kg (Keep Exercise!!)

8) I want to have a project that I in-charge in the design ( at least one, please ><)

9) I want a DSLR/ Keyboard piano

10) I want a simple lovely hug

11) Appreciate my family and friends, spend times with them

12) Face my Fear

13) Take a choice instead of waiting for chances.

CHECK BACK WHAT I ACHIEVE IN JUNE~ARIGATO~

-Only can Try my Best-

2012-01-01T08:53:00.002+01:00

Saw one of my best friend few days ago, she was excited and still a very caring friend that I ever meet.

She said why am I looked so down and unhappy, where is the happy suling that smile?

I wonder, Am I looked so despair? I was only tired after work...

Maybe I am despair... but I am not unhappy, just unsettled..

It is funny that stress can add up pimples that make a person looks very down

..Dislike!!!

I felt that something just keep holding me…

maybe the biggest problem is my new job..

Even though I don’t like my scope of work now, I don’t want to lose my job..

I like this company as I can see it is full of potential...

BUT

I am afraid so much that I will lost my job I dint know how and what should I do…

I had told only few of my close friends, and they said “ You can do it..”

And sister said is only a small matter, but to me, it’s not :* (

With supports, and all I can do is to believe myself and try my best,

if things still doesn’t go well, let it go… maybe that is fate… And change another route

because many things in our life are uncertain n unexpected…

I shouldn’t worry so much… Should keep trying!

Even though we can have planning or any back up plan,

We have to “walk one step, see one step”

"Ifu Doudou"

2011-12-19T18:07:00.001+01:00

I found a meaningful nice song "Pomp n circumstance "Lyrics song by Ayaka Hirahara :

少し冷たい風　壊れそうな心　見ていた
負けない…だから精一杯　僕らは今を生きてる

don't be afraid... oh, my friends
どんな時も忘れないよ

果てない空へ　夢をのせて
僕らは歌うよ　苦しいときも

つないだ手をはなしても
こころはきっとつながっているから
涙をふいて　歩き出すよ

どこへ辿り着くんだろう　明日の見えないこの道

don't be afraid... oh, my dream
それでもただ自分を信じていたいから

上り下りの一本道に
僕らはどうして迷うのだろう

迷うのだろう

何度だって立ち上がれ　oh-oh

果てない空へ　夢をのせて
僕らは歌うよ　苦しいときも

夢に届け　力の限り
誰かと同じように見えても
ひとりしかいないから
あきらめないよ　僕である限り

credit: music.goo.ne.jp

English translation
I watched as the cold wind seemed to break my spirit
But, I won't fail ... Therefore, we will live today will all of our might

don't be afraid... oh, my friends
No matter when, I won't forget

On the fleeting sky towards riding your dream
We will sing, even during the saddest times

Even if our connected hands release
Our hearts will surely still be connected
So, wipe your tears and take a step forward

You will arrive somewhere, even if you cannot see tomorrow's path

don't be afraid... oh, my dream
Nevertheless, it is because you still want to believe in yourself

On this one road there are ups and downs
Why do we hesitate?

We will probably hesitate

But no matter what go forward oh-oh

On the fleeting sky towards riding your dream
We will sing, even during the saddest times

To reach your dream, as long as you try will all your might
Even if it seems the same as anyone else
It is because you are not alone
Never give up, as long as you are you.

- my little response to the @pple-

2011-12-04T13:10:00.009+01:00

Had watched a taiwan movie name "you are the apply of my eyes",

it is nostalgic. Like the moment they went out together, study together, put the kong ming lattern together... and also felt that We all should appreciate what we have now, appreciate the people with us and because many moments just disappear after times and couldn't go back again... and sometimes we can't even find back the peoples... or couldn't reach

BUT I realized that my high school life was not as interesting as in the movie.. haha

I believe that many peoples have honey moon life like that before but my high school life was filled up with books @@ fully packed, sleep and even eat with books.. can't imagine how could i survive like tat...

Yet , i still felt greatful that busy life was good to avoid us from thinking too much.. XD

In my real high school life, I had tuition for almost everyday after school except wednesday, maybe? many of my classmates were same with my life too, sad...

and even my sunday morning had physic tuition, yet the tuition teacher was the best teacher i ever seen... :))

By all means.... i still think i quite like what i studying,,haha almost all subjects...i am weird @@.. i like biology, additional math, physics, account.. almost all.. hmm..

Felt that the main character is very lucky to have many guys that protect her :)

felt that i should go back to high school to change everything of my life haha, but it is impossible : (

I think my only similarities with the character is that i used to get 1st place in the school for many times too.. hahaha, in form 4 and form 5 if i not wrong.. 9 times?? HAHA, i am praising myself... XD (slapping my own face XD, but it's real..) (you can vomit when read this!)

I was almost felt like crying too when the main character cried when she can't get into her dream uni... something like that..? not about the uni... but is when

she said that" I only know how to study">>> I felt like crying..

There are many times i felt that I am just like that too, useless, and din't even get a scholarship to study...because I din't know much about how to apply it correctly and i don't even fight to get it too... All I felt sorry is for my parents.. i had wasted all their money...

and I wanto mentioned that she is very lucky that she has someone being there for her when she's sad or crying... There were many times I just sat beside my dog.. and din't know what to say.. or cried alone...

And she said in mandarin that life is many times "tu lao gong bei", what we work hard for, yet we still doesn't get what we want for.. but life is not that easy (and is unfair too) many times we work hard for something, we don't get it too... but still we have to try our best..

Maybe in other eyes, I was a bookworm , yet i felt that if we given a chance to study, why not just try our best?? imagine other child in africa don't even have a book to study...

Just like what the main character had said " I do not look down on people who get bad results, I only look down on people who don't try their best in studying?"

it apply same towards many aspects in our life too... If we know we can, why we don't wanto change, and don't work hard, and let it be? and letting others looking down on us in the end?

Yet, I felt that high school still left me many sweet memory too, those moments and activities.... camp fire, marching, chitchat beside the classroom,conflicts, discussion before exam, competitions, tuition moments, walking back home with friends, being praise or even being scolded because my class was the noisiest class ever..

things that happen before couldn't bring it back.. but they are stored in our heart forever..appreciate whatever we have now..

时光的流逝，再也找不回来。好好珍惜现在吧!

and what i lost was my past energy that keep trying, because many times I had been pulled down?

Yet i think it is time to push myself up again.. Have to be hopeful no matter what.. :)

- Small thing that matter-

2011-12-03T06:04:00.005+01:00

There was once I was requested to design the minor interior spaces. Since there was lack of time, I had to complete the interior design 3D and doing research in 1 and half days.

Later on, the task was carried on by interior designers.

After 1 month, I was asked by an interior designer from another team about the design of the ceiling and lighting for the space.. I was impressed that they took my design and put it into detail .

As architects, normally we hav to visualize a space initially and put it into 3D or sketches... roughly with concept

And the moment you saw your design actually in real drawing with dimensions and in detail (how the materials joints together) being done by others >>>>

You eyes and hearts just light up at the moment...

I simply couldn't describe that feeling... maybe i'm still a young architect ( hmm.. not consider yet)..

and the moment you see the building you design actually built up on the ground is the biggest satisfying moment ..

If you are an architect, do you want to stay till this moment no matter how tough it is?

- for the moment-

2011-12-01T12:26:00.001+01:00

Sitting in the food court, thinking back, many things flash back in the moment, happiness n sadness...

She stare at the crowd.... It's her brief moment of gap between the busy-ness

She wish this moment could be longer, yet longer could make her thinking much too,

The happiness that can only be keep in heart .. N sadness too can be masked by a smile, maybe happiness and sadness come concurrently

The songs that she wan to share but find that will it be heard? Or a glass wall will block all out?

And she think back again, Two weeks ago, the moment when she felt sad n depress and started to write down her sober to someone , but in the end find out why did she do that?

And realising "why" that person cause a sudden sadness.

And why?

-dear Santa-

2011-11-23T17:26:00.002+01:00

Dear Santa, I know you can't see me, n If I am a little girl, will u fulfil my single dream this year? N i promise to smile ..

A dream tat only be store in heart...

I hope that santa u will hear me

- the night hour-

2011-11-22T17:25:00.003+01:00

I find that when i tried to be as generous as possible...

maybe I couldn't....

maybe I think I will exhausted....

recently i find that people is hard to be..

n i keep on thinking my best friend once told me..

" you don't have to please everyone..."

n maybe towards only the important to me??

n i just too tired after working..

-the gyaru's eyes-

2011-11-20T06:04:00.004+01:00

I was learning Gyaru style make up yesterday, and found that it could make my eyes super big..scared.. haha.. but still a bit like the unnatural of it :)

This is a weird novel that i currently reading.. still wondering what is the author is trying to potray, it has many hidden meaning that highlight the current japan's politics n social issues, (indirectly), and off course it's the negative sides.

- A big thanks -

2011-11-09T15:40:00.007+01:00

Today, I received a greeting from my long lost friend, Jenny.M from Finland.. She wrote me a long story copied out from a blog..

I was very impressed and very appreciated.. I knew that time couldn’t go back to the place where we used to hang out with.. used to laugh together.. and I want to thanks the technology that could make us stay in touch no matter where we are..

There are times that I am very excited or emotional, sad or being stubborn and angry.. yet there are always peoples that laugh with me, cheer me up, and support me.. Especially mentally supporting me no matter where I am.. I felt very grateful.. since I am this low self confidence.. and always dragged by my emotions..

No matter they used to support me in the past, or still there with me… these are people that I would like to thanks to.. I am very grateful to have all of you… and with them n all the deeds will stay in my heart… many hugs for them:

KJX, Jessy.S, HBH, Cheryl.C, Neil C, LY, CPK, Jenny M, Jenny T..

-glimpse of part of my work-

2011-10-27T01:16:00.006+02:00

Felt quite sad because 2 days ago being lectured and teguh by my leader that I am not as hardworking as my buddy who will do everyday OT and come on saturday or even sunday.. I will not work too crazily but i will have to speed up...

and not angry at all of what he comment , haha because i just thought of my attitude >> lazy insect still don't wanto fight for it... I think have to change now... or else i can't pass my probation :* ( I want to leave a nice foot print in my company since I still like the company :)

A quick review of presenting my work (it's a design presentation) hehe

some 3D sketchup and photoshop montage without Rendering because of rushing of time.. : )))

sadly, i don't get a chance to hear from what the director/client had commented about it.

It's an interior design.... under progress and still changing..

The classrooms have to be design as low cost as possible , so i choose to design the room with only painted wall that match the initial building facade design. Below is the facade that done by other architects long time ago.

Below is the student incubations that allows student to sell their stuff. the lighting will have different colour.. not the walls :) because of the lighting, it mostly design using Photoshop...

Choose to have a ceiling like this.. :) circle panels and round light to match the room design ( round + curve) >>singing right round right round ~~

- baby blue-

2011-10-26T15:11:00.003+02:00

I woke up in the morning, when a baby keep following me and repeating calling me

"jie jie" " jie jie" "morning morning"

and she following me everywhere..

I felt sad and happy in the same time....

she is such a cute little baby that could so true about her own feeling

and sad is that where in this society, mum have to work hard

and left their babies being taken care by others...

and couldn't have chance to say " morning, mummy"

-Don't worry. You're secret's safe with me-

2011-10-23T05:45:00.004+02:00

I watched Real Steel yesterday and thought it was a pretty nice movie that besides showing incredible 3D , it also shows father& son relationship, emotional core and life value that we could adapt.

The little boy, was mature, has stubborn and the strong will power that challenges his own father..

and everytime he will say something that link me back and thinking on my own life.

There is one dialouge that I can't forget, so I re-check back on net.

It's about that every time when we really want somebody to know

something so much,

and couldn't even find the right words to say it....

hanging there or struggling to say
and yet

he/she just understand you and said

" don't worry..."

it's like he/she know it all..

and this is the dialogue between the father and son....

Charli3 K3nton: Max, I...I really want you to know. No, I need you to know, I...
M@x K3nton: Don't worry. You're secret's safe with me.

- D tiny baby -

2011-10-16T04:39:00.007+02:00

Wake up in the morning…

Saw baby smiling with her little teeth and she said “morning”

after keep throwing her toy ball towards me..

she started dancing

When I bend, she bend…up and down like crowns?

for me, she looks just like little siu yin zi (chibimaruko)..

She wears her shoe that make the sound” quek quek quek”

And walking here and there…

When I said something, she mimic me yet all the wrong sounds..

when we said love the doll, she kissed the doll

when we said love jiejie, she kissed my forehead

When I walking towards my room, she run faster than me to my room

So she can avoid me closing my door..

She is this little angel (evil) that she make my sunday smiling ><

- about drama scene-

2011-10-14T14:41:00.007+02:00

Many peoples like to watch Korean or Japanese drama, including me as well..

Yet, the more I watch it, the more my heart will feel sour...

Watching a drama that has a hero that

no matter how clumsy and bad she is..

he will still there to help her and love her

it's so touching and thinks that it rarely happen in life.. ><.

- Abit to be improve-

2011-10-14T14:26:00.003+02:00

Thinks that sometimes have to reflect back and take times to think what I really am.. what should I change.. It's sometime hard because no one guide you what you are....is upon own choice...

This is for me , yet could be useful if anyone see and think they are?

1) Have to always dream, plan and work hard so that can rest hard

2) Think before complain

3) Do things must double check, don't be too confident ( an advice from elder brother)

4) Always tell yourself, whatever you do, it must be acceptable and good anough for yourself first

5) always learn from very detail and calculative person since I am too overall judging and too general in things ><..

6) Be thankful to peoples who fool you because it make you stronger

7)Accept that I am not very fat but still fat

8) Be prepared ( for future) , Be Proactive ( always try to change when things change), Be Reflective ( this quote is by by one of my company director)

- the moment of train-

2011-10-14T00:17:00.005+02:00

Looking at the crowded train, and the uncomforted faces of the passengers

Waiting to get home sooner.. or keep ‘massaging’ their phone

And found that the train here is so far has the best facilities and timing she has seen

Her hometown train that she used to traveled in the past,

5 years ago..? has the worse facilities and worse timing

Yet the memory of traveling by train still vivid staying there

The moment of waiting the train,

siting at the bench,

with glory morning lights shining through the curve roof’

everything seems to slow down

5 minutes seems like 1 hour

and looking at the broken down train parked right in front of her sight

wondering when the train will come

The moment of uneasy feeling when the train delayed like a snail

Or stepping into the slippery floor during the rain season

Morning, the smell of the strong mixtures of perfumes

Evening, the moment of smell of stinking sweats of the tired workers

The moment of walking out the train to the destination

stepping up and down the stairs

and walking past the 3 tracks that rarely traveled by ‘cargo’ train

The moment of looking outside

watching the long banner of green that from by the moving train

the moment of running like a child

rushing to get to the train station

when seeing the train is reaching from the far

the moment of frustration when don't get to find a seat

and have to stand in the whole journey

The moment of listening to the familiar sound that make by the train

when the train passed across familiar place

The moment of stepping out of the station

Running down the stairs

And saw the familiar car waiting for her to bring her back home

-Abit of mid sept-

2011-10-12T00:15:00.003+02:00

If people asked me ''how do you do?"

It is easier to say i am fine/good..

then to say i struggling to build my life...

settling into a new life is harder than stepping into a new life

I made mistake and get nagged by owner

I'd tried to move faster so that I am not late to work

I tired to listen song often so that I don't think much

I walk instead of taking bus

I have to smile and greet new friends..

and each days getting busier

how good if i can slow down my life..... but all the time don't wait...

is like the time has a robe tie me down and say" move!!move!!" ><..

and I keep telling myself:

Be hopeful is more than be hopeless

and sometimes you don't have to be strong

and keep smilings,

remove all the shell and cry

To believe more than to doubt

To love more than to hate

-Dream world 2-

2011-10-03T17:32:00.003+02:00

When far become near...

When words become voices

When emoticon become laughters

and where pictures become motions..

The dream world become a more real world

24/09

2011-09-23T18:08:00.004+02:00

Small Happiness:

1) There was a meeting today, and it was a presentation from other team in my company. It was a short one, yet I had learnt many new stuff that I never thought off.. I felt very very glad that I managed to join in a company that has many architects that could share ideas and discussed around. It's very different from the past, working life used to be a bit difficult when everything have to managed myself, and no senior architects to ask for..

2) First time saw my colleagues joke around and smiles.. haha : )

Small Sadness:

Today, I sat on a reserved seating for the old, pregnant, disabled in the MRT when I saw there were no old/ pregnant/ disabled ppl sitting on it. Yet, when I too into reading a book and din't realizing there was a pregnant lady standing in front of me for quite some time. I only saw her when I stop reading my book.... so I stood up and let her sit. I was not sad but felt very sorry.......

Small Emo:

time really pass so fast..

- Little kind act-

2011-09-22T17:48:00.005+02:00

-22/09-

the escalator at the Mrt station usually is a complex one, with 2 or 3 going ways up, and 2/3 going ways down.. and today I was as usual,

Walking down from an escalator and I saw a blind people asking for help at there, but everyone just seems ignoring and avoiding (rushing) an d many thought he was just begging for money.

and I wasn't sure as well. and just a few moment, I realized he needs help when a lady came approached him and gave him a hand, she holds his arms and , guide him and lead him up from the bottom of the escalator..

It was one of the kind acts that make the ''watcher'' heart melt.

- The kind bring happiness to others-

2011-09-22T17:37:00.003+02:00

When the downpours lower down the mood to start a day,

and passing by a ceremony with many white flowers

I rushed through the shops to get to the bus stops..

from far, I could see the bus had reached the the bus stops,

and peoples started moving in,

while I still have many steps to reach there.

The wet floors forbid me to took the swiftly steps,

and the bus's door closed and it started moving

just when I felt despair,

the bus stop again and open its door.

The bus driver greet me and he saw me from far..

and the beginning of the day became pleasing

Thanks to the bus driver

- 18/9, my brother's birthday-

2011-09-18T16:27:00.007+02:00

Here's a page from my book that I wonder why I took picture of it lastime... and still keeping in my computer..

My new working place ,

wonder why there is an unwanted flowers on my table X_X

Small Happiness :

1) I am starting on a small new project.. :) hope I can finish it

2)SHOPPING, Walk around here and there and din't even know I heading to~~Is that a good T_T ?

Small Sadness :

Thinks that wherever we go, there are rules to follow..

Things I plan to :

1) Earn many money, and invest for Nice shoes ( cause comfort shoes will make you feel like flying~~)

2) Live till the fullness~

3) If I have a baby (If only ~~ If.. T_T haha) , I will take care her myself until she is big enough to talk n walk~ only applicable if I am rich enough n no need to work @@, i am dreaming only

4) Need to reduce on drinking milk tea X_X

I am very Glad that I am here XD

Song of the day:

Man Man Ha Ni by U-Kiss (weird, but it's addicting)

Utakata by Kagrra

-14/09-

2011-09-14T15:29:00.005+02:00

Today blog is very casual... : ( sorry, nothing very helpful...i will try to think of something when I am free :D

Small Happiness :

Get to meet new friends today : ) and learn some thai words

Small Sadness :

Menstrual pain tillll .....a stage that my legs are pain as well, but when I was having training class, I suddenly felt so awake, maybe it's the pain mthat wake me up or the speaker that given a very good lectures... a very nice training : )

but stomach is still pain -__-

Small Emo :

curi look at people hugging with each other.. hahaha

Song of the day :

Praan by Gary Schyman

Small quotes:

If feel tired, close the eyes and sleep

13/9 - when work begin -

2011-09-13T16:34:00.009+02:00

(not me in the pic.. : )
My life will start to have a typical working routine soon.. haha..

and when I saw colleagues busy.. will feel like wanto be hardworking as well.

It's been around 16 days at here.. even though will sometimes feel difficult coping to live in a new house environmnet, buying things or finding places.. but soon will get used to it. : )

Small Happiness:

When I back from work, I took the wrong bus since everyone in the same row just walking towards a different bus.

Not sure bout the bus tat i took will reach home or not, and I asked an aunt sitting beside me, she told me that she was staying near to my house and we started chating n chating.

She brought me around the food stalls and told me which one is nice to eat, which one will open till midnight if i need it. She is very frienly and even gav me have the same last chinese name(character)

Small Sadness:

Not enough songs in my playlists...

Small Quote:

Do things must like never do before~

-10/09-

2011-09-10T16:16:00.004+02:00

Small Happiness : Finally get to eat waffle after so so so long din't eat it

Small Sadness :

Why I sad about small matter : ( why?

why wanto be emotional? why?

and another matter is

why papa always want to be a good person, why?

why be good because of pride?

why he always let others take advantage?

Small Funniness :

When I buying my dinner, the waiter ( a China Guy) asked me what to eat.. cause i was thinking what to eat, I unconsciously smile .. then he suddenly said very loudly : " Wa, you are so cute when u smile, what a shinny smile !!"

then everyone look around.....my MATA BESAR.. O_Olll

I feel like running away >< ..

but think back it's still a bit funny because of the loudness..

Small Quotes : ''If not now, when? ''

- Sketch of minimal-

2011-09-10T06:24:00.003+02:00

-I love Minimalism -

-Like interior with white and soft light colour wood :3 -

- and the use of natural lighting-

-Quotes from mum-

2011-09-08T18:47:00.002+02:00

"we must always hold our hopes"

"we must have aims > either material /non material, maybe cars, house n so on.... so that we could live in motivation , and work hard for what we want because without aims, life could be a boredom"

''to earn money ourselves and buy things using own money will make us more appreciate the things that we bought" >> satisfying

-little bit bout mum-

2011-09-08T18:20:00.004+02:00

It's weeks ago..

i remember that...

Mum brought me to a morning market, and she saw an uncle selling blankets..

those blankets are made from accumulation of different clothes and joined up to form a blanket.

(usually are those left after making cloth)

It's normally made by grandmothers for their children / grandchildren, I have one when I was small from my grandmum. (but it was thrown away by mum since it was too small for me : (

My mum took one the nice blanket and decided to buy it

for me, I was curious why she wanted to buy me this blanket.

and before I leave home to SG, she said this blanket are made from fabrics that have no fluffy cotton ( i wonder what is that call) but we all know normally thick blanket has cotton on top of it that hold dust.

the fact is >> I have nose allergy since I was small..

adnd this type of thin blanket will not gathered up those small particles cotton/dirts

on it surface :* (

even i din't realize that.. and she remember.

another thing is..

I had mentioned many times to my brother to go for Pizza Hut but he didn't want to.

but not to my mum..haha

and there was one night, my mum suggest to go for Pizza Hut at night..

and I know very well she dislike fast food.. but another matter that I know that

is she knows I want to eat pizza after not eating it for so many months..

and she brings us there...

these 2 things are just the small example..

and for many times, mum could sacrifice a lot for us.... : (

don't even bother what she is wearing,

and most of her clothes are from morning market.

but she ask us to buy better clothes..

don't even bother what famous brand of her handbag is..

as long it is useful with many pocket.

and all those little things that she did are countless for us..

no matter how, i must take care myself. Do Not let mum feel sad.

-something very rojak-

2011-09-07T14:44:00.004+02:00

I wrote something yesterday when I have many words in kept in my brain that it become over-flooded.

these are Just a random one when I thought of it when walking, sleeping or doing things

these few days

I watched a drama,
the main character pray
when there is a problem
and said " I will try my best,
and accept whatever that come"

I always live like a nomad
when can i live at a permanent place
only a comfort place that I hope for?

When I get something I never received before
maybe something nice, small or meaningful
I will keep it for long
and look at it again n think
"who else will border to give me such thing" then :*(

Matter that I hate the most there are some people who is rich

that said " It is so cheap, why not buy it, why border?"

There was an experience of eating in Germany cafeteria which the price was consider very cheap for students.. we get 3 dishes ( drink, 2 vege side dish, and one main dish) and only for 2-3 euro.. comparing to restaurant food, it might cost 5-9 euro+, yet when we eating happily n proudly eating many and could pay less, the local students said it taste sucks..><

Eating alone is not sad,

the sad part is we can't eat what we craving for..

The greatest advice

from sister about orientation/direction

is to imagine n re-arrange buildings and

space in our brain from top view.

haha > quite useful

The saddest thing about emotional control

is to smile and say " I am Alright"

when we feel like crying.

People always don't know our efforts

but our end results/ products

( either being criticized or praised)

and that is part of our life

so the final one is very important :*(

I knew that rarely share my emotion

to my friends

no matter happy or sad

of being afraid.

sometimes want to shout out loud and say

" I dont care arrrrrrrrrrrrrr"

6/9/11

2011-09-06T14:36:00.005+02:00

Small Happiness:

1) I went to my office yesterday to submit something and lost at somewhere near the station.. a kind gardener told me the way to go there.. halfway walking, still didn't know where was it. then I heard someone calling me from behind, It's still the gardener, he had followed me cause i lost X_X, he pointed to me where the direct staircase to the office. really thanks him for helping.

Surprisingly, this kind gardener had helped me before last month when I came out from my office and need to go to another station. if i not mistaken .. haha :D

2) Mr.Hee accompanied me to buy a pc mouse yesterday, and I found a nice mouse yesterday, better than the previous 1. :) very thanks him for bringing me to IT mall :) and thanks for the yummy dinner

Small sadness : Quite sleepy today

Small emo : Tak da emo (only miss mum XD)

Song of the day : Fight together by Namie Amuro (dislike the part 0.46 to 1.00)

- The marker paint-

2011-09-02T15:12:00.002+02:00

My small painting using colour markers (magic pens) : ) , it's a sea side (drawn from a magazine )

- The static rain-

2011-09-01T16:53:00.006+02:00

Saw this pictures in a website.. it's an installation by an archi firm.. the photographer's capture is very nice :D

maybe in the real space, it's not that amazing. after capturing through camera, the effect seems better than the original.

and..Somehow, many incredible art pieces had been created when many of us (artists/ designer..etc..) trying to think of ways to "stop" or "slow" down the rain or to capture this nature phenomenon through our own creations .. :)

- The Tiny1 at Lunch-

2011-08-31T17:00:00.003+02:00

Went to eat lunch with my cousins yesterday,

And.. it was my grandmother who treated us all.. O_O surprisingly.. She said the small ones never eat western food in this restaurant before.. so she asked us to come and join her.

At first, we thought that there were lunch sets so it would be cheaper a lot. Yet, the waiter said there were no set lunch since it was a public holiday. Finally, we decided to have lunch at here because it's difficult to travel around.

After she looking at her picture, she told me " Cute ma...." -__-

She liked soup but can't finish it...
When I said " smile with your teeth" haha :)

He said he wanto promote this soup..
this fellow obviously can finish... XD

While eating, he said " I wanto be a singer nextime... "

I asked him "why?"

He said " I become a singer and I can be friend with Justin Bierbir" --____-- lll

-The flower beds-

2011-08-30T19:02:00.001+02:00

My lazy painting : )

Karen's 23th Birthday

2011-08-29T12:39:00.006+02:00

Last Saturday, I went to celebrate Miss Karen's birthday at Overtime.

It was a surprise party for her and me and my friends had been planning long for it. Actually, Her birthday is on next month. We planned to celebrate earlier since she is going to HK soon while I'm going to SG too. It was initially also my farewell party yet I change my date of flight to SG.

However, we are celebrating without one of our friends, she is in SG currently. : (

This is Karen's surprise present from her Bi.. It was given by the waitress out of sudden when we were eating dinner.. : ) There are 9 Snoopies & ferrero rosea each in total to signify her birthday month. (we din't realize until her Bi mentioned it.. haha)

At first she thought this is a present from us, but we don't even know that he bought it.

This is the beer: Starker, we ordered one barrel for us.. it taste not bad..
The USA girl ..haha :D

Later on, we went to Snow flakes at Subang for second round.

It was around 11pm but there were still many peoples . XD

This is my first time tried snow flakes, the one with the soya milk taste very nice. :D

21/08

2011-08-21T23:58:00.003+02:00

Small Happiness : To look at many landscape photographs... so nice!

Teaching dad using his new FB account T__T

(he was so happy chating with his 1 friend even he was typing very very slow XD)

Small sadness : I can't sleeep : (

Small Emo : used to live in a quiet room... still can't get use to my environment now , haha

Song of the day :

Good Good time ( by Koyote)

A bit noisy n jiggly but still a song that can make me happy :)

Sunday Dinner 21/08

2011-08-21T17:32:00.005+02:00

I went to a seafood restaurant : ''Boston'' in Klang today with my family (aunts + grandmother). It was so crowded and sister had to go 45 minutes earlier to book for the tables and dishes. The food is good yet it is very oily ,salty and added many sugar as many of us don't realize. : ( ( many comments here, but it's true @@)

The fried meehun and noodles are full with the "pork oil"..that's y it taste so nice.. haha, we keep ter-makan the fat inside the noodles, imagine how many there are.

Took some pictures of them before eating.. my brother's face as he keep making different faces when i taking... X_X

See -__-

He tak tahu buat apa

He said he's not happy when I am leaving soon to work : (

My grandmum, my sister, my aunt and my cousin : )

my cousins so hardworking reading novels XD

20/08

2011-08-20T18:10:00.005+02:00

Small Happiness :

I went to aunt's house yesterday, and she said something that I think is wise.

I was saying that I can't earn the money that Dad "invest" for me. I wish to earn more to pay him back

and she shake her head with disagreement, and continue saying that " it will take a life time to pay back your debt if we counted it from our child age, what you earn is your"knowledge" , that is what the most important thing after all."

I feel very touch of what she was saying and I think sometimes the things we spent at and the places we went do give us something that no one could hold and that is our knowledge.

Small sadness :

Seeing family gaduh-ing..

Song of the Day :

2 is better than 1 by Boys like Girls

(this song is pretty nice from melody to lyrics, like it so much, the guitar , the vocal , it's my all time favourite) :3

19/08

2011-08-18T17:59:00.003+02:00

Small Happiness : Looking at how funny mum playing Angry bird

Small Sadness : Can't find a new room.

Small quotes : " When you earn money, you will more value the things that you bought, and will feel more satisfying" mum

There is a story about the time when I just reached German that I wish to share here. : ) I could remember it vividly because it was a day that I felt hopeless yet safe eventually.

So there I was with two luggages , walking out from the taxi to my new accommodation, the taxi driver said he will just drop me by the entrance. Hence, I went in and realize that my room was actually at the third floor. I was confused, I din't know where to find the landlord.

I tried to calm myself down. Worse thing came, I found out that my hand-phone had no battery. haha. I tried to search for a socket at the small lobby area and I did found one. The place is quite dark.

After charging for 15 minutes, I thinking that it is no a solution. unplugged my hp, I tried to went out with my luggage and I found a lady passed by. She smiled to me and greet me in english, Thank god.. haha, she really could save my insecurity feeling. She is student there.

" Hi, are u a new student? Are you looking for the landlord?......etc I could bring you to his office" her english is quite fluent. I was amazed. And we have small talk walking towards the landlord office. When I reached the landlord's office, sadly, he was not there.

unfortunately she said "You would have to wait till the next day to stay in my room." O_O? The girl apologized to me, and greet me goodbye. ><..

I was so afraid that time.. and was planning to stay in my msia friend's flat in another area. Yet, I have wait till I could contact him with my handphone. >>. and I wait at the lobby staircase, sitting there wondering.

Suddenly, an old guy appear , he has a white mustache , he spoke to me in german and I did not understand at all. He showed me a key and few sheets of paper with my name written on it. I was so happy cause I could know the answer in instant.

He grabbed my luggage and carried it up to the 3rd floors. He talked to me in his own language that I have no idea at all. I only could guess what he was talking about. I tried to introduced myself with my broken germans too. and he thought that I could understood him @@.

Finally, he open up my flat door and introduce my flatmate to me..

At that time, I finally feel very safe.. >< He handed me the accommodation agreement and requested me to sign on it. and there's go my life in germany :D haha. it's a bad start.

18/08 Dinner

2011-08-18T17:17:00.006+02:00

Gong Bao Chicken

Egg with tong fen ( carrot + spring onion)

Long bean + Egg plant

Today the dinner was cooked by me with the help of my mum. : ) she taught me the new recipe of fried eggs with tong fen.. (if want to have better taste, add some prawns)

The dish are Gong Bao Chicken, Long bean + Egg plant and Egg with tong fen

I really happy to cook gong bao chicken, the taste is just nice... not too salty , and not over sweet and spicy XD yummy.

Yet, many type of sauces were needed to make the gong bao sauce -__- (chinese dish >> too many rempah and taste)

Sauces : Chili sauce, soya sauce, sesame, sugar, salt, black vinegar, oyster sauce

Ingredient : Chicken thighs, spring onion, carrot, Dry chilis X20, garlic, onions

- the sweet one : ) -

2011-08-17T04:08:00.003+02:00

It is pretty sweet right? :3

This is one of my favourite couple pictures in FB.

They are my University seniors. :)

Hopefully they don't see this since my blog is a "silent" blog T_T . arr.. i am a stalker ><..

but I really like this picture and I wish to share it. :D

''After-rain''

2011-08-17T03:51:00.002+02:00

I like this picture taken in Switzerland very much : ) It is an "after rain scenery". Initially, the sky is very dark, I tried to capture the scene before rain.. But we could noticed the far scenery is raining heavily with heavy cloud and mist.

16/08

2011-08-17T03:36:00.002+02:00

Small Happiness : I feel abit happy after teaching my aunt AutoCAD.

Eating a custard bun from Lavendar Bakery .

Small Sadness : Din't know it is so soon that i will be leaving Msia again

Small Emo : I miss the fireworks night.

Small aims : Be better in Orientation + remember place/ Space

Lose weights in 1 month time starting from today

Quote : Just DO it~

15/08

2011-08-15T16:23:00.008+02:00

Small Happiness : I get to be more manageable in doing my stuff : ) although i can be still doin this and that constantly ( i mean surfing internet.. haha XD ) i think i have to learn to be more "one task at the time"' ARRR.. internet><

Small Sadness : I am not sad, but i get constant msgs from a guy that I din't even know and meet before . since 2 weeks ago? from msn, facebook, sms. and how come he has my hp number?? i think i am bit scared -__- I din't do any single reply but he still msg me. how? ignore/ tell him to stop msg me?

Small Emo : Not emo at all : (

Small Wish : Plan to have a DSLR after saving money ( maybe a second hand + new lense) :D

Small Quotes : ''You can be safe and good, but do you want to to take a chance, to fail greatly and to be better? '' Jimmy .J.

Think that read some motivation quotes can make my life more enthusiastic :))

Song of Day : Give my Love by Edward Chun...

It's an old song , really like the piano melody.. I keep playing the piano cover of this song..like it so much!

Act + React

2011-08-14T11:11:00.003+02:00

I've learnt something important >< , it sound very robotic T__T but very true.. it simplify what I always read in book. Ahaha XD

1)We can ACT for what we want (dream it, go for it, do it)

2) We also have to REACT when matters that changes and things are not what we aspect...

because life is not perfect. Face it! Be Brave~

I think many of us react what comes to them but did not act/create. :D

about 14/08

2011-08-14T10:33:00.007+02:00

Yesterday, i went to shopping with my friend. It's happy to know that she is getting married soon (at the age of late 20s) . Time flies like a glimpse eyes , it had been a year since the day she mentioned about her marriage. And now, i got the chance to see her wedding pictures.

In fact, I never knew that it is so soon that I am back to my home again after two years of studying in UK.

There are many common questions people will ask : What are you studying? Wow? Architecture? Do you found a job? do u have boy friend? how old are you? Do you like here or Uk? Haha

And recently : luckily you are back, there is a serious riot in UK.. --___--

Small Happiness : I get a job, I AM HAPPY! ( maybe for the moment, I am happy, maybe i will hate my job when i start my work, maybe I coudn't have time to play, but it doesn't matter, we all can't predict what happen next.. haha, as long as I am happy now)

Small Sadness :

1) I always lost something and it causes many difficulties.. I knew that I am Blur, I trying to change.. but I always did it out of my unconsciousness/''un-focus'' mind.

2) My reaction is slow..... @_@

Small Emo :

Recently, I have been thinking that one day if I lost someone/something, what will my life be? it's something about changes of our life. and I am very afraid... ><.

What if my dog that I always play with suddenly gone and I couldn't call her name anymore .. I couldn't play with her and feed her anymore.

What if the peoples that we laugh/cry with us suddenly disappear?

What if the place you used to be going no longer there? and you couldn't go there anymore?

Feel like life is too short, and time keep rush us, we must appreciate what we have now. : ( If changes happen, we have to change and face it too.

1/8

2011-08-01T17:35:00.004+02:00

Small Happiness : Can sleep longer at home because i have fever

Small Sadness : Tak da.. : (

Small Emo : if I have more courage and freedom to express myself. X_X

SMall Advice: Mama " do things must have courage and passion"

About work/ business: Koko " most of us know what to do, when others have the courage to do something and eventually success don't jealous, just "long piak ( langgar wall) because this world is about ''speed and courage'' T__T

-July Home pictures-

2011-08-01T13:25:00.003+02:00

-Trying to cook Tomato Egg plant + cheese without spaghetti sauce : (

My graduation present :3 .. its ears are very very soft XD
my brother first try in baking Green Tea cake ( actually i wanto bake it, he stolen the greentea powder : (
My first trial on cooking pineapple fried rice success..

( anions, garlic, raisin, pineapple, cashew nuts, prawn, eggs, chicken breasts)

( sauce: turmeric powder, soya sauce, salt, chicken stock, White pepper, sugar abit)

29/7 Random

2011-07-29T18:13:00.004+02:00

Small Happiness : Saw my dog play alone with her food, she grab it out from her plate, and play with it happily ( we tend to forget the small thing/ moment that make us smile)

Small sadness: Less Focus of what I am doing.

Small Advices : When you have many friends, choose those who you think are important to you. Sometime you couldn’t, because social do matter apparently. But in your heart, you do know who .

Find what matters to you, think what is best for you.. and life is not perfect, people is not perfect as well. we always have to choose and accept them.. we fall, we win, we make mistake, we learnt as well. :D

** Need to learn to relax myself.. hahaha XD

Small Emo : Find that I am not girly, but will try to learn it. And I don’t have beautiful girl fingers.. and friend say is rough too.. haha

Think that I really like design, and what it will lead to..

Song of the day : Forest Gum: Klavier Solo

28/7 random

2011-07-27T19:35:00.003+02:00

I step into my blog again..

Decided to write somethings daily/ set up a theme in my blog? XD? maybe as below .. :D will change if not suitable.

Small Happiness : Singing with sister (making kiddy voices) , Ate Mamak Mee Goreng

Small sadness : Couldn't have many own times (time to reformat myself) :* (

Couldn't help to solve my sister's emotion.

Small Advices :

- When decided to do something, GO FOR IT, don't doubt and uncertain (from mum)

- Be discipline: Do the most unpleasant/ the most dislike thing in the morning.. save the like one at the end of the day

Small Emo : 1) I don't know why I keep thinking about it since that day.

p/s : ( not everyday will post this theme since I always happy :D)

Song of the day :

Next to You by Chris Brown+ J.B ( it is such a nice song , especially the lyrics, I don't care anyone hating justin or not... since this song is pretty nice :)

- the familiar eyes, the affirmed teacher-

2011-06-22T01:17:00.003+02:00

Holding the plate filling up with BBQ chicken, she was telling me part of her history. She said “sometimes we have to be choose between choices… and is hard for us” There are always choices that we have to decide.. which is important, is hard to judge what is valuable, but is through our instinct.. sometimes logic can’t judge it. >> difficult.

After chating, she walked away and continue helping others and crack some jokes.

I saw her once in fortnight when a group of young adult, a church group was held by her and my friends in my flat. Even though I have not much knowledge about Christianity.. I found the comfort of listening and learning. We knows that not all teachings could be acceptable yet it is meaningful to learn.

There was once she said that we have to appreciate every moment even it reach the final moment of submitting our works. She even quoted down the word from a finalist in a show that inspired her, who said “ Who say I will lose, I have 60 second more.” It also means even the 1 minutes counted for us to use , and not to stumble on..

Hence, please do not give up even we face the crisis moment..

I feel that there are many times we can’t meet people in person ourselves, there is always our friends that given us a chance meeting new people.. This is why the we call it fate.

Even though I didn’t know her much, the way she talk to the listeners, to me and the others, I instantly could feel that she is a knowledgeable and strong in spiritual belief; a caring woman , optimistic, ambitious and faithful to God. She always thought about the others first than herself.

Today might be the last day I seeing her, but who knows I will meet her again in the future? I am very grateful for meeting such a amazing people : ) it’s akin to what she’s always said “ Thank God”

I want to say "Thank you" :)

-little June-

2011-06-17T12:11:00.003+02:00

It's been a while that I didn't write about myself..

Haha, maybe another blog will be about my life..

I think that people has to live with hopes and

try to do things with the add of our heart..

and not doing things half way ( sudden interest in one thing, and jump to another thing)

and Try not to complain.. there are things/matters that we don't like doing

yet there are still things that we like to balance them off.. XD

Always try to learn and keep trying...

A people who lost faith in themselves is people who lost their life..

I think that it is better to

1) always skill up ourselves rather than complaining ourselves and others.

( What used to be doesn't mean have to be.. maybe we used to be very shy, but we could learn to be brave)

( We do not know how to walk when we are baby, but we can now)

2) Appreciate others thinking, attitude, skills than their physicals

3) Prepare for the future yet still live the fullness now

4) Be open minded since everyone has different thought and perception

5) Accept, Solve and leave certain matters which are tough

Even though sometimes I feel emotional and weak

I knew that I couldn't shout... in compare to others' difficult circumstances.

many people in this world are there struggling to live

I think that I am very blessed..

Thank God and to my Tata ( my grandfather) and parents and friends..

compare to my previous blog which is only temporal emotional

I must be hopeful.... not live blindly...

I have to restart my life, maybe seeing unfamiliar faces and place ... I have to be hopeful..

Being hopeful is better than hopeless.. since hopeful means that there is still amount in the percentage of our bad circumstance ...

-Egg Tart First Try-

2011-06-16T23:25:00.005+02:00

I like egg tart very much especially the hong kong style egg tart. Missing it in Dim Sum. : ( Today,I had finally make egg tart after refering to few youtube site on how to make egg tart recently.

The ingredients are almost the same.

It is quite weird that all the website had different number of eggs for its filling: around 3 to 9 eggs different.. I was using 4 eggs refering to the youtube site : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OA1N6dA_dlY

When making it, I was quite sad since I do not have the Egg tart Mold, I was using a baking pan which has six mold. It was quite tough to make it..still, I have fun making the shell/ skin.

Normally, it took very long to bake cakes and cookies , I was thinking that people will just swallowed the cakes or the egg tart in just few minutes and not many realize that it took long to make it.. pitying the pastry chef..

The Shell:

140g Butter

½ eggs

200g flour

Filling

140g white sugar ( I mixed with brown sugar)

300mg water

4 eggs ( I think it is better to use 5)

90ml evaporated milk ( in Glasgow , it is unsweetened)

I think that when I just step into Malaysia,I will rush to buy all types of egg tarts: Portuguese, hong kong...etc.. haha =)

-Gemista-

2011-06-16T23:01:00.005+02:00

Yesterday, I tried to cook a Greece traditional dishes which is known as Gemista - Stuffed Vegetables such as Tomato, Peppers, eggplants, courgettes. I had tried it in Greece and was so amazed by the taste.. super like it

It is not like the normal tomato rice, it has a different smell... I still experimenting the flavor...

I've tried to search several website about the recipe.. Originally, the recipe is Vegetarian, some were modified and added with meat/beef.

This is the basic ingredients:

1) Oil ( olive is better)

2) Pepper/ Big Tomato to stuff

3) Onions

4) Garlic

5) Short-grained rice

6) Dried mint

7) Parsley ( Half cup)

8) Minced Meat/Beef/ Chicken ( Optional)

9) Raisin

10) Potato ( to put beside it while Baking)

Basically, it is just like cooking fried rice... except the rice is cook together with the ingredients until it is 75% cook. Because it will be cooked when all the ingredients is stuffed into the Peppers and Baked in the Oven.

the error that I had done was to omit the Parsley and Mint ( i think it is play the main role in adding the flavour)

To add on, It is better to put the Potato at the sides during the baking to add on the flavour..

I had tried to put cheese on top of it during baking.. :)

The taste is not bad, but it still lack the smell I had tried in Greece >

I think it should be baked longer ( more than 20 minutes) to allow the Pepper to become softer...

I will tried again soon to find out what is the main flavor for it.

After BakedBefore Baked Stuffed the ingredientsChopped all the vegetables, onions, garlics, meat.

- The unknown-

2011-05-31T10:28:00.004+02:00

Many times we think that life is unfair...

yet we couldn't blame god..

we live in the complicated life

it's not only about money, career, success,

we are bounded by security, love, relationship, social... etc..

when we are happy about something...

another matters just tossed us down.

there are no perfect routes/road.

There are time we have to cry ourselves to sleep.

or we have holes in our heart

wonder when is day and night.

wonder what is true or false.

yet we have to pray and face the challenges..

Everything is not easy. Future is unpredictable.

we always have to be strong to face the unknowns.

- Day out with J -

2011-05-28T10:07:00.007+02:00

On last friday, I had a friend that promise me and my housemate to take picture for us. After he mentioned that he was looking for model to shoot some portrait pictures ( included in his photography portfolio) . Yet, he end out getting fever after photo shotting two other models.

At first, we were very excited, I tried to help my housemate to make up. It was her first time to put eye shadow.. She seems super happy to dress up and go out after all long time trapping inside her room studying.

I was excited as well, planning to take ballet picture since I was insipired by B@llerina Project page in fb which has lots of amazing pictures of ballerina dance and pose on the street . XD missing dancing n my dance teacher. She was an ambitious woman. Everything she will said something that motivate me.. hmm..

Back to my story here.After we dressed up, waited for 2 hours. tried calling my friend again. He did not pick up the phone.

Feeling bad to be "fong fei kei" by friend.... disappointed. : (

then, me and my faltmate decided to go to dinner and take picture ourselves.. haha.. :) still feel great, luckily did not go for the photoshooting, since i do not like big potrait picture.. Think I am not pretty to have close-up portrait picture.. XD

It was a nice experience to pose in the street.. haha . luckily the street we passed by do not have many people during evening.

I don't have ballet shoe.. lol

after make up..

eventually, I didn't wear this dress

she insist that it is " a girl under the lamp"
she was shock after i help her make up ( my first time helping other make up = )
pretty lady ( many of her classmate wearing maxi, so she bought it too.. ) hmm, maxi dress is very famous in seasonal country during their summer/ spring... yet , i don't think it is suitable to wear in malaysia, it will be very hot.. >< ( In Glasgow, the weather is still very cold , not suitable to wear this)

''I like european guy'' .. " I like Turkey" she told me.. she really did wanto marry them if she could.. ><

She was looking at the book I'm reading now : " the other hand"

- An @lien insect-

2011-05-26T08:37:00.002+02:00

This is an insect that looks scary and weird.. It appear on the living area's carpet.. It did nothing wrong to us.. but because it is scary. my housemate and I spray detergen, air refresher, shoe cleaner on it..

In the end, it dead.. Rest in peace.. I am sorry..

my favourite little purse.

2011-05-26T08:27:00.006+02:00

This is a purse that I am using now.. my dad bought it 1 & a half years ago. It's only RM10 but it can last till very long.. it's small, around 10cm X 7cm width.

My dad bought it when we were sitting in a Kopitiam and there was an indian seller came selling purses and dompets. He said this was made from leather ( camel leather which is cheap)

I don't think it is made of leather but it is so nice, the skin is soft too :)

The best appealing point is that it can be stored in the pocket. the only disadvantage is that it don't have the coin pocket.. hopefully it can last long..

- don't want to be hopeful -

2011-05-25T11:02:00.008+02:00

( Marker pen, black ink pen, colour pencil + cutout with PSD)

Yesterday, after receiving my design studio result, I felt quite sad.. It’s not purely about the marks.. :* (

Generally I had been thinking about the system of my university. How could they judge our works based on only looking at the presentation board that we show, and we only have limited space to show our works? 3 landscpae A0 ( when we have 6 months to do this BIG project..)

When I’d put in my plans, it already took up 2 A0, and I only have 3 A0.

I’m not purely complaining about the system (it has it's own good and bad). Yet, we knew that this architecture world is always this unfair (I think it work the same in other fields) . It’s not about how many works you had done. But the work you show must be idealistic, telling others your idea. It's about both "smart" + " hard" .. how tough it is..

Same in winning competition and satisfying clients, it’s basically responding to what they want, it’s not how many , and how good we show ( off course it also based on our hard work… but hard work not purely judge our result). It’s mainly to grab the idea of what they want, how to impress people…IT”S THE REALITY THAT WE ALL KNOW BUT WE KEEP REPEATING THE SAME MISTAKE.

For the worse cases, sometimes it's about our luck…

Back to my project, if to say that we have to be selective in presenting our drawings and perspective, we do not get what we really have to show initially ( as no one telling yet it is all written down in black and white booklet that we have to find out).

When I studying here, I don't feel like I am in university at all.. students working at home, and only show what they have done when submission days were stated and the marks need to be given. We pay to learn ourselves. haha..

I didn’t blame anything, since the time given is not limited. (limited in design development)

It's the faculty system that confuse us…

I felt sad too, mainly blaming myself. Because I didn’t explore enough, I didn’t giving much passion and patient. But I know that I had tried hard because I was working like crazy? Essentially working in stress condition without thinking back the purpose of doing what I am doing?

All I knew that I had decided to work no matter how.. since I didn’t like this university at all.. couldn’t get hold of this.. Yet keep thinking about what will happen to my future? What it is and that. Is it life about “walk one step, see one step?” as many seniors and old generation had said.

Or we could choose what we desire to do? But we all know it’s always goes not accordingly to plan. Our life route always twist, changes….. We have to change to face them too.. ( it will be a non-fiction story if it all go accordingly to plan)

Many had suggested to work at here. Yet instinct keep telling me I don’t like the life at here. The people is friendly and nice. If you work, you earn pound (no matter what you work as, you still earn more than you work in msia) The weather is somehow colder.. the security is much more better compare to msia. Yet, it can’t give me a click.. Instinct told me so.. plus it’s hard to find a job as an architect..

Currently still very down and lost. What do I want? If I could feel the uncertain, means that I am not so into this field ? maybe working life could tell? What if I work as a designer, art teacher, illustrator, film editor, product design or other related field?

- About J-

2011-05-23T20:40:00.006+02:00

Today, I received presents from two Jenny's' .

My current flatmate, she bought a bag for me while she was traveling in Turkey . My another flatmate told me that she first thought of buying a bag for me when she just step into turkey. ><.

I would miss my flatmates so much after we all graduate… I knew it.

One of my housemate just help me a lot in my final project... there was once she bought me food and cook me lunch when I was rushing assignment.. without her support and help, I think I couldn't been through this stressful days...

Really Thank god for always giving me hopes and sending me helps..

I really feel grateful that I always surrounded with kind people..

And I never know that I will receive a letter from my ex housemate, jenny. She sent me a letter made by herself.. It’s kind of interesting.she always did this funny things.. collecting unused bottle,box and paper ( same as me..ahaha..)

Really missing her.. She taught me many things that I never ever thought of. Recently, She had delete her facebook account because of personal issue. It’s hard to contact with her again… :* (

I didn';t want to show my address, but it is to show how amazing she colours printed the fonts one by one ( not printer, but hand ><) , water colour the pictures she drew... she always did those tiny little things.. XD

suddenly feel emotional. because the people we used to be spent together just disappear after months or days. We always said that we could keep in touch , msn, facebook, or whatever media that connect us.. yet it is not the same.. people that we used to play and cry together.. they know us well.. like our family.

Like I always mention…>

I remember the time I sat in the kitchen looking at her eating breakfast with sleepy eyes. When she drunk half way going home...She always there to support me, lend me a wisdom book title “the way of fxxk it… ” hahaha, it's a weird book, but it is really helpful.. XD

She used to send me a song to advice me. something about our life...hmm.

Oh ya... She spent one week teaching me how to knit a scarf. I am so poor in knitting.. >

I am very sure that I could hardly meet her back again. If I could, it'snot the same like it happens before.

To Jenny, with lots of thank of being my friend….I know that is hard that we will meet again.. but I thank god …. To me, meeting Jenny is my gift too .

Time always 'flush out' the moment we spent time with others… It's not about how long we stay together with others.. It’s not about how outstanding the people that we spent with.

It’s about how important the people to us.How fate bound people and people together… but I know that people who are important to me will never be erased in my memory.

- moment of last run-

2011-05-08T13:17:00.007+02:00

I do feel afraid.... and sometimes the fear is so overwhelming.

time is limited... maybe what's left is own energy and strategy.

have to be rational..

take a deep breath... and go~

-Yongseo couple-

2011-05-05T16:03:00.010+02:00

Similar to my precious post, about an OST song, these are pictures from a korean show : We Got Married, in mandarin, it's call 《我们结婚了》, those artist who had been chosen to be the temporary husband and wife have certain nick name, Yonghwa (CN BLUE) and Seohyun are named as... "红薯夫妇",

They are the youngest couple among the other shows.. :D

They are so sweet to be together :) Real or fake, It's so natural to see they stare at each other. Yonghwa always being gentleman, protective and like to make fun...

While Seohyun always did what yonghwa asked her todo, such as practicing guitar and music. It’s such a nice scene. :D :D

It's so excited to watch the show.. cause it's not drama but a show.. it shows the common life.... of couple / husband (kind of like it when it is not about drama and sophisticated scene : dead, rich, princess or etc..... ) (maybe some are acting but some are natural..) :D

- Falling Sl0wly Ost from Once"

2011-05-02T22:30:00.007+02:00

I put this video because every time I failed to upload the mp3.. hmmm.. even in my other posts..

( I really like the melody, very smoothing and soft... It's like mother singing a sleeping song to the baby..haha)

so where did I found this song...:

This afternoon, I was watching a Korean show : ''Virtual marriage'' by Jung YongHwa (CN BLue) and Seohyun (SNSD). It's such a nice show.. It's about Korea Artist have a fake marriage for one year ( eat, play and hang out together).....

This couple just seem so natural. : )

In one of the episode, they have a short duet, YongHwa play the guitar while seohyun play the piano.. It's their first time duet together but they succesfully blend the melody together.. It's so nice to see people playing instrument together.. :D

It's such a nice song.. And I found out that it was an OST from a movie, Once', and the name of the song is Falling Slowly...

I din't check out the lyrics.. I just like the instrumental.. and original version is not that good compare to the melody.. such a amazing melody song...( It's a composition of guitar and piano )

- Decided 2-

2011-05-01T18:09:00.007+02:00

( photo from the song hear our prayers by Yuki Kajiura)

It's a sunny day...

with a prayer.. I had made my decision.

after talking with my friend.. she's my merely new friend.

I feel so grate XD

and now I see it clear.

I'd decided..

To go back my homeland and work somewhere near.

after graduate..

To take a break on study ( an intermediate zone)

or never come back

( maybe worse it merely end out like that?? )

(or maybe it end out better : D )

but i will complete my path..

To follow the flaws

but with dream in mind

i don't want to lost my hope but

I am happy to be like that..

no matter the result/ the future is...

I believe in my instinct

all the best to me~

I had decided..

-my archi project-

2011-05-01T06:13:00.006+02:00

hese are my assignment initial sketches and diagrams.. : )..students are required to design an @rchitecture school ( a future approach) .. hoping to develop more but there is lack of time and have to balance of with construction and environmental stuff else.. such a big project.. haha.. and design is only part of our task..

If I lost hope n passion, there are still... my family that always support and give hope, I hope that I don't fail them..

-my random spring pic-

2011-04-26T22:16:00.010+02:00

we do not need a perfect scene to get a nice pic .... ( wabi sabi)

same to us, people too : ) no need to be perfect to be lovable..

and pleasing people is unpleasing too ...conclusion> be ourselves.

but when we're doing something (work, cook, assignement) we should try our best.. extent our limit.. Yet, after we finish ourt task, in the end process.. we could said " i had tried my best, or I had learned my lesson, never repeart mistake at the nextime" learn + change, relearning..

A very nice spring flower (actually it is very small , about 3cm in diameter, it blossoms all around the grass around my campus.. )

recently, many people picnic on the grass slope field, which is opposite my campus... and the area was left with rubbish and empty bottle, not happy to see the sight : (

My new spring dress, it's my favourite colour > white XD

Please ignore me of trying to advertise the perfume (fail) ... -_- I get this Hara Juku perfume from my flatmate.. I don't really like perfume, but I kind of like this very much, since I rarely receive presents....every present live in my heart.. : ) :) .. thanks to my dear housemate..

will upload more ...

- d little 1-

2011-04-26T19:50:00.005+02:00

Suddenly miss this little fellow , my cousin.... she used to be very quiet when she was a baby.. but now is very naughty... she is a very great singer indeed.Same as her brother, she has one big and another smaller eyes.. could you notice them XD?

- The colour-

2011-04-25T14:02:00.008+02:00

To my mum, my dad, my family, my close friends and my special friends

recently i found that I could be myself

I felt very grateful :)

I could jump happily even I am super stress now.....

"Life become colourful when u feel happy"

we must be happy..

love and be ourselves....

life is full of flawness

and when we face challenges or sadness, face it..

-spring-

2011-04-24T10:42:00.005+02:00

(photo by ling)

When Spring is here...

you could see droplets of pink and yellow

blossom on the peak of branches

proudly sit on top of grasses..

like the stars in the sky

they smiles to you : D

-W@ll dec@ls-

2011-04-21T10:32:00.004+02:00

Like wall decals.... It always impress me :)

Some desgin used the concept of designing the real furniture and fit to the 2d wall.. It is one of my favourite... think that this decals have the better impact than pictures and poster that hang on the wall because pictures and poster usually have a " cube" or " rectangular" boundry..

Many might think whether the graphic could last long in the house...since sometimes the more we look at pattern and decoration, we felt bored too.. many of the decoration could come in sticker form too... so it is flexible to change them :)

- No molimoso-

2011-04-17T22:06:00.009+02:00

Left only 1 month more....

YOU CAN DO IT... !!

Ling ling, wake up..

KEEP DOing

Think hard, work hard.. no procrastinate...

what is important?

no matter how fear also must do it...

Die also must die hard.....

must BE STEADY

-Random day update again-

2011-04-16T02:01:00.007+02:00

Today, I was totally into my studio design although I was tooooo slow in doing it.. Wonder when can I finish it... I should plan properly..

Very excited get to eat black pepper chicken.. had not been cooking this since months ago.. I'm lazy to cook rice, so it's just chicken, fries n vege..

And playing with my camera... XD

want to make like a picture of 'unreachable hand'.. "unreachable people", something like that.. XD ha.
my sleepy face., maybe not.... my left part has a pimple in the middle .. first time have it at that location, . so i crop out.. XD ahaha..
My working space.. oopps.. i on my FB ..
Black pepper chicken Cook with capsicum

- the short fun moment-

2011-04-14T07:48:00.006+02:00

Gosh... I really missing those girls and funny moment either in Malaysia or University...

Had been trap in the room for long... will become numb.. hahaha XD but never mind..

Hoping that funny moments could last even though everyone is growing up and have different path in the future..

hoping that friends will not lost contact even have their own partner...

We were playing with cooking tools >> kiddy XD (ignore me...wonder what i doing)
Fashion post but all fail..
Adeline, my dearest friend who always share the same thinking with me.. like we always dreamy and blur.... wishing the miracles.. she is starfish n i am a crab..

my new friend from mexico..mt one day friend.. haha XD
My another new friend from Beijing.. he like to take picture.. he started taking pictures with his iphone since the party was started.. haha XD

-Attitude -

2011-04-13T17:22:00.005+02:00

Today, after listen to the speech of Neil Pasrischa, I was so impressed.. He was a guy that won an award in blog ...It's about "1000 Awesome Things savors life" .. He also written a book title The book of Awesome...

He has given an incredible speech... which is about positive thinking, and up and down in our life...

He said he personnaly summarized his own concept of life with 3 MAIN >>

"ATTITUDE" "AUTHENTIC, and 'AWARENESS"

I actually copying down a paragraph that he speech.. I was crazy.. haha..

In the topic 'attitude'...

Here is what he said

" We all have high highs... graduation, baby born, wedding...etc and big days

But between those high highs we may also have some lumps and some bumps too. It’s sad, it’s not pleasant to talk about. We all getting bumps and it ain’t going to plan.

Your mum could get sick,

you dad could get mean….

And there are times in life when you will be tossed in the well too

with twists in your stomach and with holes in your heart.

And when the bad news washes over you

and when the pain sponges and soaks in…

I just really hope you feel like you’ve always got 2 choices:

One, you can swirl and twirl and gloom and doom forever…

Or two, you can grieve, and then face the future with newly sober eyes

Having a good attitude is that no matter how difficult it is

No matter how pains hits you

You choose to move forward and move on

Take baby steps into future ( no matter how long, how small your steps are)

See the world as we first seeing it… Like the 3 years old child that see the world..

-Not finding unfamiliar, just missing something familiar-

2011-04-12T22:57:00.008+02:00

(pic. from Mow design website)

She was sitting in the train station somewhere at the place that she have not locate in her map. It is a station she has to transfer to another place. At here, she was surrounded by the unfamiliar faces and unfamiliar accent. She could hardly understand them if she does not listen properly...

Thinking when she will used to it? Is it human nature to find similarities in skin and culture so that they feel comfortable? Or is it just her? Maybe she is just missing the place she grow up with…

Staying at the north of globe, people always greet her with smiles even they did not know her… they hold the door for her when she was walking behind….They said sorry when they just accidentally block your way... She feel that peoples are far more friendly, educated and civilized.. but why she felt certain lack of liveness or soul?

People from her places might point at her, how great to be at here.. how lifefull it is… she should appreciate it…Ya, she does feel how great it is and how interesting to get a chance to stand at the different place.....

and maybe one day she is no longer at here anymore, she will say,"how I miss here…"

but now, she does not understand why....?

why she still feel the unfamiliar after so long… ? or the feeling running away grow stronger? maybe is not feeling unfamiliar with peoples. she is just missing peoples, things and places that she used to stay in…

Ya... She miss home...

- the spring holiday-

2011-04-07T23:29:00.004+02:00

If we feel sad, our concentration get distraction... Yet.. my situation is different...

If you feel bored but too excited.. you find yourself hard to concentrate too...

hard to manage yourself too...

my mind just drag from here and there.. x_x

Dear god, i wish i have an alarm could scold me...

I don't wish to run away in facing fear...

i don't want to run away from obligation..

pray and make a wish.. face the challenge .. please..

-About Music Composers-

2011-04-07T15:08:00.005+02:00

Recently, I was wondering why certain musics has so much similarities among them even though the singers are different..Off course sometime is plagiarism.. Yet, the reason mainly relied on the music composers :D

In public, generally the singers who gain famous when their music is famous.. the workers behind the scene such as the writers and music composer as well earn a lot yet being unrecognized by many.. haha..

Recently, I found three different great composers.. one is Hans Zimmer .. he is the composer of Gladiotor's OST... what a great composer...

While another is Red One.. RedOne is one of the Top music composer in the current music industry.. He composed lazy Gaga " Poker face" and Sean Kingston " Fire Burning on the Dance floor.. Now I know why the tempo and beat sound so alike... And recently.. "On the Floor" by Jennifer Lopez feat Pitbull.., another great dance song..

The third is Yoo Young jin.. He is the composer for most of Super Junior and TVXQ song.. such as "Sorry, Sorry", " Rising Sun", and 'Bonamana'.. found the similarities? XD recently he composed for Girl Generation :D he is the singer yet not so famous.. haha

A great singer need a great composer too to become famous too.. IF luck, they need recognization at the right time and place (comapny). sound tough....

to manipulate the kind heart

2011-04-06T20:36:00.006+02:00

As requested by someone, I had changed my previous title, it sound rude and racist.. and I just realize...

Today, I found this picture online.. I couldn't understand it until I read the caption about this picture...It was written in mandarin..

It stated that the sea lions are actually kind animals which willing to help those who are in need of help.. including different species (animal or human being..)

YET! those sea lion hunters use this opportunity to hunt them... They pretend to die on the snow... lying down on the ice shelf.....when the sea lion saw them, they will lye themselve on top or beside the hunters to protect them from dying in the cold....

In return, these cruel hunters use this opportunity to catch them..... how cruel! It's inhuman... Even sea lion could act like a human...how could they do that??!??!

if you have strength, can try your best to catch them... but using the "kindness" of the sea lion in return to earn money is TRULY UNACCEPTABLE! how could sea lion shout help to God? it is so painful to look at the sea lion...

:* ( how could they do that??

Becoming vegetarian is not the way to solve problem.. i think the main problem is mass production of food.

I don't wish to discuss about eating animal... or be vegetarian at here...it's forever a debatable issue...

I really hate people that who did that.... not only toward animals, but toward kind people as well....

We always pity people who are generous and don't dare to say no... people who have soft heart always viewed as the target of those predators...create the pity trap and using others' pitifulness to let peoples fall into trap? Sometimes it is unfair... because we are always maneuvered by those smart peoples...

Be strong when you know how to differentiate the black and white.

2011-04-05T23:50:00.005+02:00

I heard the wind blowing strong outside...

it flows through the gap of my room's window

and form certain weird sound...

I want to sleep but I woke up again..

It's Qing Ming festival.. I am afraid.....I think I am thinking too much.

Is it embarrassing to be weak? haha..

I wish I have a dog at here...

A Tribute to my mum

2011-04-03T22:23:00.000+02:00

Today, UK is celebrating Mothers' Day... :D wonder why the whole world is not celebrating together.. haha..

I chose to write about my mum since I worried that I do not have to time to write my blog in May ( the real mothers day in malaysia). XD

Think that I have a greatest mum :) always there to support me..

yet I am childish daughter, sometimes I don't talk and act logically that make her feel sad and worry... By the way, she like to call me early in the morning 7 or 8am in UK time.. haha

The greatest thing is that she never force me to study since i was a child..she always there to support whatever I like to do, yet, she does not want me to be greedy but focus only on few things..

I remember that when I was young .. maybe till high school.. I always tried to study hard and hoping that she would see my result neither good nor bad. yet, she usually did not look at my exam reports >< and she will just signed her name on it.. haha..

There was once that I was so angry because she keep praising my brother when he only get 1 single A.. I think I burst into scolding mum angrily.. hmm..at the end , i remember I get a slap from her.. ><

I remember that when I was a kid, I spent 5 days drawing a bear just to make her a mothers day card, yet she forgotten it in a restaurant.. which make me angry for many days..

by the way, i like the bear that i drew : (

I do not wish to continue my mum n my flaws...haha....

My mum is a greatest mum who would call even at 2am because she was worry...

When I was sad, she sat there telling her story and advising me for more than 1 hour..

She will cook porriadge when I sick, brought me to nice restaurant when i mention that the food there is nice...

I think she is my angel that always there to lift my family and me up... There was once my sister and me decide that the song that best suit my mum is "Because you loved me" by Celine Dion..This song is dedicated to her : )

A chill..

2011-04-03T06:43:00.005+02:00

I woke up early in the morning, It's only 5am... O_O

wonder what keep give me frequent goosebum and chill

throughout the night

since the weather was not cold... scary....

I on my light in my room... check the internet

on my earphone and go back to sleep...

Amazing piece of works

2011-04-03T00:12:00.005+02:00

These are few master piece of works done by my fb friends.. he's Nuno Serrão .. If you are interested with his work.. you could add him as friend... I coulnd't deny the fact i can't stop looking at the amazing landscape pictures.... 100% nice!

I am thinking of buying a DSLR all the times.. but I have not buy.. haha, I worry that I would spent of buying gadgets which are expensive for me XD still considering.. maybe I will

Banana Muffin

2011-03-27T22:45:00.007+02:00

This weekend is my best weekend ( maybe.. haha XD)cause i spent my time resting n playing.. (>> lazy)

Today I had finally find my time to make muffin , its actually took 30 minutes to make it since it is a simple recipe.. : )Howeverm It's way too sweet for me.... cause i put too much sugar when following the original recipe.. : ) I forgotten that European usually prefer the sweeter pastry.

anywhere.. i like banana pastry.. everything made from banana is nice except banana milk shake n the raw banana... XDSince I did not enough mold for the muffin, so use the separate cupcake mould...

Hope everyone has a nice weekend too : )

Here is the recipe ( i change the orginal abit) :

200g (7 oz) plain flour

1/2 teaspoon baking powder

1 teaspoon bicarbonate of soda

1/2 teaspoon salt

3 large bananas, mashed

150g (5 oz) caster sugar (PLEASE REDUCE TO 130g is preferable for Asian taste :P )

1 teaspoon Vanilla Abstract
1 teaspoon cinnamon

75g (2 1/2 oz) butter, melted

Revert

2011-03-24T22:19:00.005+01:00

when i am loss

i should close my eyes...

stay calm and sit well...

understand what i want...

not to struggle.........

to get clear

i am playing the song

"Now we are free" from gladiator...

愛不需要時間中文

2011-03-21T22:23:00.008+01:00

This song is not very nice compare to the thai version..

yet the meaning is nicer.. :)

Just thinking that everything about u is funny

This song is dedicated to u...

Haha, but it's from you to me.. XD

For you that always listen to me and

You are the first one that always review all my songs

hahah.. :)

Thanks for listening to me all the times

From sadness to happiness...

I never know how future is...

but I am grateful of now.. : )

I wanto say many thanks.

Similar to Yee mee

2011-03-20T18:42:00.007+01:00

Recently I bought a egg noodle from a shop... Its brand is " "sharwood"

It was actually recommended by my flatmates..

I never knew that it taste like yee mee..which is one of my favourite : )

i had tried two flavors.. one is the normal anchovy soup. ( i did not take its photo)

while another is the sizzling plate sauce..

very impressed that i cooked make it.. : )))

i will tried other nextime..

First trial >> with many vegetables XD

When I cooked the second time, I'd finished my vegetables...I only add sausage , onion , chili, and egges.. haha

It's actually very spicy, i keep drinking water.. so i was fulled half way eating it.. then i passed it to my flatmate to finish it.. she did finish it for me XD haha